Although my mom agrees with me that I shouldn’t date in college because I have to concentrate on my studies, she also has repeatedly told me to start dating guys after I graduate undergrad because I’m an only child and when I grow old I should have someone with me especially when they’re gone.
I hate it when they talk about when they’re gone.
In high school, I couldn’t help being a little bit dumber than the other Asians in my school. But I wish I was a bit kinder and more loving towards my parents. When I grow older, I don’t think I can be like my mom. And when I find someone, I don’t think I can find someone like my dad.
Well, to be honest, I don’t know if I can ever like anyone because guys seem to be manufactured to like alcohol, have done some drugs in the past, have a lot of experience with girls (and if not, they fantasize about barbie-like girls), and all kinds of other bad stuff. And there are a lot of scary people out there too. I think my judgment is pretty good, but I could be caught off guard.
In any case. Sometimes. Sometimes, I think, to myself, I hope I get a super good high paying job and be able to move to Korea with my parents and don’t find anyone so I can take care of my parents. So sometimes, I think, I don’t need anyone because above everyone, my parents are first.